BearFish

1 — Your Best Friend

You’re amazing. I actually can’t think of a time you haven’t been there to pick me up when I’m done [not literally obvs]. You make me smile, laugh even when I just want to curl up and cry. And all the good times as well. Its been about 6 years and no arguments. Sure, we have our small moments, but there nothing. I actually don’t know what I would do without you. Thankyou so much. <3

 2 — Your Crush:
This is going to sound so gay BUT Hannah did it, so I will do. [PS to Hannah, I nearly cried at yours just so you know! ;)]

Erm, I don’t even know what to say apart from the fact that I wish I had liked you when you liked me -_-. and I have no idea if you know how I feel but I reeeeally like you. Stupid boy. :) 

3 - Your parents 
Mom - Even though I haven’t exactly been nice over the past week, I do love you. I just wish that you wasn’t getting married to him because I hate him. I hope it works out, because I don’t want to see you go through it all again. Well, to be honest, I wish you would listen to me, and not marry him, but you won’t so good luck.

Dad - I know you haven’t always been here for me, but I don’t care. What matters to me now is that you make an effort. I love you so much, and I actually miss you loads. 

4 - Your sibling
Well, I don’t have any proper one’s, I have a half brother and a half sister.

All I can say really is that I love you both and I miss you. 

5 - Your dreams
Erm, well, some of you are weeeeeird. Like the recurring one where it was just a helicopter following me. Bad times man. But apart from that, you’re OK. You allow me to see things/be things that will never happen in real life.

 6 — A stranger
Yo, talk to me. Cus I can actually be really funny. Unless you’re a weirdo/stalker - carry on with your life.

7 — Your Ex-boyfriend
LOL.

Erm, well, you’re kinda old news now considering I haven’t spoken to you in ages. Glad were still friends and have a nice life because I’ll probably never see you again! :)

8 — Your favourite internet friend

I actually have no idea who this is to considering I talk to quite a few people online. 

Thanks for helping me have a social life at home! :D

9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Erm, again I don’t know who to put this one too, because obviously there is a lot of celebrities I would want to meet. But whenever I think of someone, look me up yea?

10 - Someone you don’t speak to as much as you’d like

This is to the same person in number 2. I actually speak to you a lot. Well kinda, and I see you regularly, but obviously I would like to speak to you more, please?

11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to 

Erm, I am actually lucky enough to not know anyone who have died who I have been close too.

To GranGran - grandads mother - We all miss you, and me and mom still have the stuff you left us. There so pretty. Also grandad misses you, we all do! R.I.P 

 

12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Well hate is a strong word, but caused a lot of pain I can do. 

Erm, thanks a lot. I actually thought you liked me, because you told me so, and then you let me down, not once, but several times. I don’t know what I did to deserve it, but thanks. It’s made me a stronger person and I’ve learnt not to trust people as easily and not fall for people as easily also. You’re also REALLY arrogant :)

13 — Someone you wish could forgive 
Erm, well there is a few people that I hold grudges but

Even though I love you, I will never forgive that you are marrying him, regardless of that fact you said you would never do this to me again.

Also see number 12. 

14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
This one is easy.

I used to think of you as my best friend outside of my best friends. I would see you all the time and you were amazing. I actually have some of the best memories with you. We said we wouldn’t drift and I feel like I made the effort to stay close and you didn’t. I actually don’t know where I stand right now with you because you are so different, and you arent the person who I became close with. Maybe it’s me, but I don’t know. I just wish I was still as close to you as we was because I actually genually miss you.

15 - The person you miss the most

-See number 14 i suppose for this one-

16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Jamaican family - I HAVE GROWN UP. Miss you dudes!

17 — Someone from your childhood

Ashton,  I remember when we hated eachother. And we used to always fight, but I am glad we speak now, well occasionally, and I know I was a bitch to you, but good luck with everything because I know that you are in university and got your own house and everything. Gooood luck.

18 — The person that you wish you could be
Someone I wish I could be? LOL

Erm, i hate you, purely cus I wanna be you. k.

19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
same person as number 2. It’s annoying so like, I dunno, sort it out please. 

20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Well, I dont really know if the person that I liked before -see letter number 12- actually broke my heart. I suppose you came closest but as I say, you made me a stronger person and I have learnt my lesson. Thankyou, and no thankyou as well, bitch.

21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
This one could actually go to you Bear. 

When I first saw you in like year 7, I didn’t think you would be what you are like at all. I know it’s bad, I thought you would be stuck up and boring (and you can’t blame me considering C******** - you know who that is) but you are actually one of the best people I know. 

You are ALWAYS there and you make me laugh so much. You are actually amazing, and you are the reason I get through english. I can tell you everything and thankyou for helping me get through all the bad times recently. I hope you and your boyfriend stay together because you are amazing together [and i proved it by cryig ;) ]

I just think you’re amazing. We havent been close for ages, but the time we have has been…eventful? Disney night, tumblrrrrr, and English? Need I say more. When are we going on our lovely pointless journys as well? I think we need to go subway in merry hill. Dont you? Or the 11 route looks appealing. I love you so much. UNIVERSITY 2012/2013. <3

22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
I would give you a second chance, and I did. You blew it! 3rd chance? no thanks. 

23 — The last person you kissed
Remind me who you was please. ;) 

24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
I have no idea theres loads. 

To the family/friends whom it was with. Thankyou so much. Because everyone who is special to me or have been special to me, you have given me some amazing times. 

25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
I’m always here, and you know it. 

26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
I never break my promises. 

27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
oh gosh. I miss our chats, so like phone me again please!

28 — Someone that changed your life
Your a dick. Like basically. You ruined everything good and I am glad you are gone. If i ever see you again, then do NOT talk to me because you ruined everything. Have a nice life idiot.

29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Look at number 2. Need I say more?

30 — Your reflection in the mirror
why do you look so bad in morning?

and also, can you like, I dunno. Look nicer? :)