BearFish

A couple of months ago I wrote posted something with a letter to someone who I missed, but I actually want to re-write it;

To Bear,

You have no idea how much I actually miss you. In college you were always there for me to talk to, and no matter how much I do love the little kiddies, they don’t really understand, and aren’t really the people who I could rant to/bitch/pour my heart out to.

Since I left we have as you said, conversed through text and had ONE meal at Nando’s. I also agree that is nowhere near good enough, what so ever, so I am going to get my ass in gear and start seeing you, because I miss you, and you’re the only person from college who I actually miss. It actually feel like something’s missing, considering you were literally always there. 

I keep thinking of our disney night - goooooood times.

I love you Bear, and I fully miss you :( 

Fish.

This was my comeback to Tumblr.

Btw bear, preggers is and always will be a rubbish teacher, so don’t let her get to you! 

Stupid cow for making you cry. Wait till I can drive, and I’ll be running her over. 

I love you <3

college is killing me

after bursting into tears mid lesson because of preggers being an abysmal teacher and making me picture her getting repetitively hit with a wet fish, after my spanish history teacher leaving for an operation (which was really selfish as she has about 30 students she should be thinking of at this crucial moment in time - the operation was not life threatening), after being completely bored to death in law and media just being the easiest but most boring lesson (second to law of course), i am literally ready to scream.

oh, i also ordered university prospectuses hoping to find some motivation to last another year and a bit, the grade requirements and the overall expenditure university requires makes me just feel like dropping out, getting a job in maccyd’s, being really thin because i’d never be able to eat any of that shit again, and dying unhappy at the age of 30.

LOL JK. 

i dont wanna die, but everything else sounds appealing (apart from maccy d’s).

Megan’s gone missing, like literally i have only conversed with her through text message and unlike every other kid these days THATS NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME.

yours sincerely,

bored to death (bear)

i miss you soo much gouldfish :(

i had to do the lonely journey from blythe to hampton today, and yes i went the long way round because you normally make me walk you to meriden for coaching. so i went on my own, and dropped my imaginary friend off at coaching.

how sad.

So, I left college. YAAAAAAAY. 

Apprenticeships ftw. 

But I do miss you Lesbian. I mean Hannah. Sorry, typo.

No Hannah I miss you and am overly excited for my christmas present still! (just for you all out there, she hasnt bought me a real flounder, even though she dropped many suggestive hints she had).

BUT, I miss you, its weird not seeing you every frigging day. You was in all my lessons but 2. “Erm Megan, thats half your lessons.”

So basically, I am a working girl and Hannah got deleted by lesbian off facebook. 

Life is goood. 

I miss you Hannah.

&of course you tumblr. <3

i was just sorting through pictures on picasa,

and this came up together.

it just proves me and john james are meant to be. ♥

1 — Your Best Friend

You’re amazing. I actually can’t think of a time you haven’t been there to pick me up when I’m done [not literally obvs]. You make me smile, laugh even when I just want to curl up and cry. And all the good times as well. Its been about 6 years and no arguments. Sure, we have our small moments, but there nothing. I actually don’t know what I would do without you. Thankyou so much. <3

 2 — Your Crush:
This is going to sound so gay BUT Hannah did it, so I will do. [PS to Hannah, I nearly cried at yours just so you know! ;)]

Erm, I don’t even know what to say apart from the fact that I wish I had liked you when you liked me -_-. and I have no idea if you know how I feel but I reeeeally like you. Stupid boy. :) 

3 - Your parents 
Mom - Even though I haven’t exactly been nice over the past week, I do love you. I just wish that you wasn’t getting married to him because I hate him. I hope it works out, because I don’t want to see you go through it all again. Well, to be honest, I wish you would listen to me, and not marry him, but you won’t so good luck.

Dad - I know you haven’t always been here for me, but I don’t care. What matters to me now is that you make an effort. I love you so much, and I actually miss you loads. 

4 - Your sibling
Well, I don’t have any proper one’s, I have a half brother and a half sister.

All I can say really is that I love you both and I miss you. 

5 - Your dreams
Erm, well, some of you are weeeeeird. Like the recurring one where it was just a helicopter following me. Bad times man. But apart from that, you’re OK. You allow me to see things/be things that will never happen in real life.

 6 — A stranger
Yo, talk to me. Cus I can actually be really funny. Unless you’re a weirdo/stalker - carry on with your life.

7 — Your Ex-boyfriend
LOL.

Erm, well, you’re kinda old news now considering I haven’t spoken to you in ages. Glad were still friends and have a nice life because I’ll probably never see you again! :)

8 — Your favourite internet friend

I actually have no idea who this is to considering I talk to quite a few people online. 

Thanks for helping me have a social life at home! :D

9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Erm, again I don’t know who to put this one too, because obviously there is a lot of celebrities I would want to meet. But whenever I think of someone, look me up yea?

10 - Someone you don’t speak to as much as you’d like

This is to the same person in number 2. I actually speak to you a lot. Well kinda, and I see you regularly, but obviously I would like to speak to you more, please?

11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to 

Erm, I am actually lucky enough to not know anyone who have died who I have been close too.

To GranGran - grandads mother - We all miss you, and me and mom still have the stuff you left us. There so pretty. Also grandad misses you, we all do! R.I.P 

 

12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Well hate is a strong word, but caused a lot of pain I can do. 

Erm, thanks a lot. I actually thought you liked me, because you told me so, and then you let me down, not once, but several times. I don’t know what I did to deserve it, but thanks. It’s made me a stronger person and I’ve learnt not to trust people as easily and not fall for people as easily also. You’re also REALLY arrogant :)

13 — Someone you wish could forgive 
Erm, well there is a few people that I hold grudges but

Even though I love you, I will never forgive that you are marrying him, regardless of that fact you said you would never do this to me again.

Also see number 12. 

14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
This one is easy.

I used to think of you as my best friend outside of my best friends. I would see you all the time and you were amazing. I actually have some of the best memories with you. We said we wouldn’t drift and I feel like I made the effort to stay close and you didn’t. I actually don’t know where I stand right now with you because you are so different, and you arent the person who I became close with. Maybe it’s me, but I don’t know. I just wish I was still as close to you as we was because I actually genually miss you.

15 - The person you miss the most

-See number 14 i suppose for this one-

16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Jamaican family - I HAVE GROWN UP. Miss you dudes!

17 — Someone from your childhood

Ashton,  I remember when we hated eachother. And we used to always fight, but I am glad we speak now, well occasionally, and I know I was a bitch to you, but good luck with everything because I know that you are in university and got your own house and everything. Gooood luck.

18 — The person that you wish you could be
Someone I wish I could be? LOL

Erm, i hate you, purely cus I wanna be you. k.

19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
same person as number 2. It’s annoying so like, I dunno, sort it out please. 

20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Well, I dont really know if the person that I liked before -see letter number 12- actually broke my heart. I suppose you came closest but as I say, you made me a stronger person and I have learnt my lesson. Thankyou, and no thankyou as well, bitch.

21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
This one could actually go to you Bear. 

When I first saw you in like year 7, I didn’t think you would be what you are like at all. I know it’s bad, I thought you would be stuck up and boring (and you can’t blame me considering C******** - you know who that is) but you are actually one of the best people I know. 

You are ALWAYS there and you make me laugh so much. You are actually amazing, and you are the reason I get through english. I can tell you everything and thankyou for helping me get through all the bad times recently. I hope you and your boyfriend stay together because you are amazing together [and i proved it by cryig ;) ]

I just think you’re amazing. We havent been close for ages, but the time we have has been…eventful? Disney night, tumblrrrrr, and English? Need I say more. When are we going on our lovely pointless journys as well? I think we need to go subway in merry hill. Dont you? Or the 11 route looks appealing. I love you so much. UNIVERSITY 2012/2013. <3

22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
I would give you a second chance, and I did. You blew it! 3rd chance? no thanks. 

23 — The last person you kissed
Remind me who you was please. ;) 

24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
I have no idea theres loads. 

To the family/friends whom it was with. Thankyou so much. Because everyone who is special to me or have been special to me, you have given me some amazing times. 

25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
I’m always here, and you know it. 

26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
I never break my promises. 

27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
oh gosh. I miss our chats, so like phone me again please!

28 — Someone that changed your life
Your a dick. Like basically. You ruined everything good and I am glad you are gone. If i ever see you again, then do NOT talk to me because you ruined everything. Have a nice life idiot.

29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Look at number 2. Need I say more?

30 — Your reflection in the mirror
why do you look so bad in morning?

and also, can you like, I dunno. Look nicer? :)

Can you even wait? I actually cant. 

17 days till christmas.

3 days till the xfactor final.

7 more early morning. 

and then life is goooooood again, kinda.

Home sucks but ahhhh well, just the thought of christmas makes it all SO much better. Plus HANNAH’S PRESENT IS AMAZING. 

OH EM GEE. 

and now I am watching sister act. GOOOOOD TIMES. 

Man, I actually miss tumblr. 

From Fish! LOVE YOU ALL!

loveeewilltearusapart:

LOL :’)

just because it said bear ;)

(via loveeewilltearusapart-deactivat)

So, sitting with bear and this lesson is completely pointless considering preggers refuses to let us see the board by placing herself in front of the board.

After asking a million times to move we have given up. Because she moves back in front so we still cannot see. Idiot woman!

Also I want to kill less just because of how annoying she is. Apart from that, brilliant day!

eveerrryywwhherreee you gooooooo.

oh em gee, i’m soo excited for christmas. I’m sure megan is tooo?

However, I have NO ONES presents yet :’)

I need to get presents for:

• Megan
• Matt
• Mom
• Dad
• Sister & her bf
• Brother & his gf
• Dylan

omg. I need to get crackalackin really.

Look at the beautiful snow.

I HATE IT.

I don’t mind it if I can stay indoors, tucked in my bed, all nice and warm. The minute I have to step outside I’m like bambi. Literally, 3 people have called me that. I can’t walk at the best of times, add snow to the ground and i’m literally a gonner.

ahhhhhh boy.

at least it’s nearly christmas. 23 days and counting!!! ♥ 

Kinda. 

When I say I am back, means I will try my hardest to keep everyone (Hannah) on my oh so great life.

Not.

If I have to hear my mom say: “Are you OK?” then I will have a break down. If I have to listen to her go on about her stupid wedding and about how eventually she will have to move to Tenerife to live with her stupid soon-to-be husband then I will shut my head in a door, because quite frankly I cannot be dealing with this any longer.

She can go and get married to someone who is a complete dick. That’s cool. Just don’t say I didn’t warn you that you are wasting time and money. 

And no, I don’t want to be a witness, because incase the phrase: “Mom, I don’t like him, so count me out” is NOT clear enough then I don’t like him, so carry on and do as you please… oh wait. You are. And I have clearly been overlooked. 

On the plus, we don’t have double English tomorrow. That is all. 

Fish.

loveeewilltearusapart-deactivat asked: megan, why have you abandoned our joint tumblr?

yeah. you heard.


bear x

Erm, I think you will find I havent. 

YOU HAVE BY HAVING A NEW ONE. :’( </3

even if she has abandoned you for so long tumblr.

but:

i searched all of google to find a picture of a bear and a fish hugging rather than the fish being completely destroyed by the bear.

i’m quite proud, i hope you appreciate this. ♥

this is bear:

one of my all time favourite songs ♥